you're so beautiful. you have tainted me. your body's tainted me..i am infected..there's no wanting anything when you've got everything. and it's so hard for me when you're my everything..all i want is you, all i need is you to notice me, picking through my head to cath your attention. to catch you walking away from me, showing me you could care less..nothing matters and i will never matter as much to you. late night sleepovers, as i lay on your pullout bed waiting, watching you sleep. it never mattered to you, me caring doesn't seem to affect you..no more desperation. no more isolation. no more dying inside. no more crying myself to sleep at night. with you i thought i'd be happy... with you i thought i'd understand why love seemed so much different without you. and you never really added up to what i was expecing